♥ Year 2015 ♥

Hey everyone! I know I haven't posted here anything for ages BUT I decided a long time ago, I'm gonna make a totally new blog and I will start from the beginning. This one has a good history since 2012 but it's time to move on. It's gonna be pretty hard to reach the same numbers of readers as here and it will take some time but it's gonna be one of my new challenges. I'm not gonna promise anything cause I still don't know when I will start a new one.. I can just promise, I will some day ;). Anyway, I decided to finish writing here and post just one more article. It's a summary of my year 2015 and I wanted to write it and share it with you because I did the same past few years and I think, it's a right time for writing last article here. It's been an incredible 3 years here. I have never thought, I'm gonna have more than 190 000 views from all around the world and believe me, I was soo happy when i reached my first 100 haha. Unbelievable. Thank you soo much for all your support, for all likes you gave me and for reading my stories/articles. I can't say how thankful I am ♥.

When somebody asks me how would you describe year 2015 by only one word, I would definitely say change. 2015 was full of changes, new beginnings and endings of some important life periods.

I started my New Year 2015 in Milan, Italy. It was the funniest and the most annoying beginning of the year, to be fair, but overall, I had a good time and I saw a new place. More info about my NYE in Milan over here --> http://liveyourdreams-story.blogspot.dk/2015/02/milan-italy.html

Anyways, my first 3 months of the year weren’t the easiest one but I think I really needed a proper ‘slap’ after 2 amazing years, which I had before. Everything went exactly like I wanted to and all was great. Maybe I just stopped to appreciate things and everything what was happening, so I needed to change that even I’m always trying to be thankful for everything what’s happening around. Whatever it was, I got a big life lecture which made me even stronger and helped me to fight for everything what I wanted to achieve in 2015. It was really bad cause all of my plans all in sudden fell apart and I didn’t know what to do, how to move on, how to change it all. I had to get myself back into positive mode and start to do my best for my future. Fortunately it worked, I got out of my bad months and sun started to shine for me again. I felt like I need some changes in my life, I need to move on and that’s what I exactly did. Also, I turned 20 this year, so it was just about the time haha.

I took some time off in my favourite place in the middle of Slovakia, small village called Telgart, whose visit is always an escape from reality. It’s a different world. You’ve got an amazing nature around, old houses, Slovakian folklore music all around, peace, nobody is bothering or stressing you. Nobody cares. No laptops, not even proper signal for your phone. Just a warm, cosy clothes, family around, book in your hand and you’re sipping hot cocoa. Relax, not thinking about anything, leaving your problems and everything out of that magical place. I just love it!

Taking a lot of positive energy from that place, my year could finally start properly and since the second half of march, I got back to my normal busy life, which I love and which is full of adventures which brings many good memories.

One of my favourite memories from e.g. april was my dad’s birthday party. We arranged it with the rest of my family without him knowing about it and I can tell you, I’ve never been as happy for him as in that moment, when he just saw all his most love ones together singing him Happy Birthday song and he was just speechless, what doesn’t happen very often. It was a great surprise and I want to have once such a secret birthday party, too :D. It definitely worth it.

2015 was also full of cultural events. I’ve been to theatre in Slovakia quite a few times with my high school friends, what was great cause I haven’t been in theatre for ages. I remember we used to go there with my mum when I was a kid for a different fairytales quite often haha. This time, it were proper plays to see, mostly musicals, which were pretty good, well most of them. I’ve been to several concerts, as well. Back in Slovakia it was concert of Juraj Hnilica, who is very talented guy and who I found accidently like a FB advert haha. And week after I went for his concert cause he had it in Presov and it was amazing. It was really small one, with not that many people but I had a smile on my face all evening and I felt full of positive energy afterwards. He is just such a nice person. I’m glad I met him and heard him sing even before many others did cause he got into one of our Slovakian competitions or whatever and everybody knew him after that. I can say, I’ve seen him life even before and I’m really proud of his work.

Another concerts of Slovakian bands such as Helenine Oci and N3O akustika makes me always feeling better and giving me a lot of energy. They’re not just the concerts, it’s a an experience, which you will never forget. It’s a moment; you never forget how you felt like that time while singing and dancing/jumping around. Later in Copenhagen, I saw Lady Gaga with Tony Bennet through the jazz week and spontaneous concert of Imagine Dragons, which was absolutely great.

I also got back a little bit to my favourite sport – tennis. Found my sparring partner, so I was so excited to play again once a week for a few weeks. I would love to get back to this sport. Not in a condition as I used to be in tho.

2015 was mostly about finishing my high school, so my written, practical and oral final exams went better than I thought, so I was really happy about passing it all with good results and finishing my high school. In this stage of life, you kind of saying bye to this 5 years, in my case, full of funny times, stresses because of many different exams and everyday seeing your friends, which became your family and part of you. Time to move on and start a new chapter.

Saying bye to my amazing colleagues in my lovely Dublin Cafe/Pub, which is one of the best places to work in and it was a pleasure to work there. I learnt there a lot and I’ve been working with great barmen and baristas. It’s always good to be back there.

So what’s happening after school? Going to university or start to work?

I chose the first one and Denmark was my choice. The only one. And honestly? I couldn’t choose better.

I got accepted to my priority school day before I was flying to Copenhagen, what was pretty exciting. I went literally on my own, not knowing the place, people properly. I was looking forward to it but I was a little bit scared too. I had no idea, if it’s gonna work or not, if I like it or not, if I’m gonna find an accommodation and work. But fortunately, I was lucky, again.

Fell in love with this place, where is always something happening, was swimming in the sea, had a BBQ with my friends near sea, became a part of student organization, studying something what I like, where studying makes sense and I’m looking forward to going to school. It’s because I want to be there, not having to be there. It’s just interesting and I’m learning something new all the time. Also walking in a mask on your face through the main streets of Copenhagen after staff party or in a sailor hat after Halloween party are unforgettable experiences.

I’m talking my favourite language (English) and I’m taking care of myself. I brought my first own wardrobe, made my room feeling it’s mine. I just love it. I love this life here. I love MY life here.

I got to know sooo many amazing people this year from all around the world, I can’t even imagine my life without many of them and they became a part of me. My friends, my family. I could use a quote here: ‘It’s funny how someone who was just a stranger last year can mean so much to you now.’ It’s true tho, year can change a lot. Literally, I can’t imagine my life without some of them and if they are reading it, they surely know, I’m talking about them :P. Meeting people for some reason? Definitely yes! #thankful

And just shortly my end of the year. I went back home home, to Slovakia for my Christmas holiday after more than 6 months and it was great to see all my family and friends from my hometown. I didn’t even want to go back after 9 days of great time and relax. But when I got back and came in to my room, I had to admit, I missed my room. It was nice to visit Slovakia but this is my current home. Copenhagen is a place where I live now and I’m just happy to live here.

And at the end, 31^st of December was my NYE in a fourth different country. Even if the time before midnight was mostly about working, it was good to spend the NYE with my friends and colleagues, drinking champagne and watching fireworks all around. It was great celebration of upcoming year 2016 and I hope that new year will bring me even more things/events to remember and will be full of more adventures and experiences.

That’s what I also wish to all of you, to have a great 2016, full of moments which you will remember forever. Don’t be afraid to make a change in your life and don’t regret anything cause everything happens for a reason ;). 

Destiny

Destiny.. Do you believe in it? I do and i also believe, everything happens for a reason. To some of you, it may sounds like a stupid thing about which is just everybody talking about but for me, it means a lot. I know, everything around me means to happen for a reason. To learn us something, to appreciate someone, that the step forward is needed. It can be anything but we should listen to this signals around us and also do something with it. Nothing will ever change, if we are just waiting our life will change on itself. We have to do something with it. We have to fight. We should stop just crying about how we cant do it but step forward and show everyone, we actually can!

I also do believe that every person who we meet is meant to cross our path for a reason. I know i have already mentioned it in my blog but it really is true! I know i met many people who thought me a lot, who loved me or hated me but even through that they showed me, how i want to behave and how i dont. Its magical to see people who cares about you and who doesnt, even if they were pretending they do. I remember all of the people who ever made me smile and brought something to my life. Who helped me. Who learnt me something. Who showed me what real love is. Who was there when i really needed someone. Who even smiled at me or said hi through my walk around or people who was taking care of me during my stay somewhere abroad. You just remember it. Maybe not all of the faces or names but you know, there was someone like that in this moment . People who made themselves memorable to me.

People doesnt realizing how much some others sacrificied because of them and they dont appreciate it enough. Thats why something happens then, whats reasonable and it can surprise you many times because you just dont expect it. But everything is meant to happen. Its a destiny when you meet someone after really long time and you just cant hide your surprised face and you feel that nice but also a bit weird feeling.

So have a look around, think about some latest things/sitations  which happend to you and it may look like it really didnt just happened for no reason. Was it a destiny?

Well... You know..

Inspiration

Everybody needs an inspiration, everybody needs a song..

This place is very inspiring for me. I'm just walking down the streets, looking at the houses around, smaller & bigger, short ones & taller ones, older or even modern. All of them have some kind of specific sparkle inside each of them. I think I can't describe it but it just feels like you look at a thing and you know, there is a story coming along with it.. And i feel soo happy to just walk around, inhalling the fresh air into my lungs what gives me just so much energy. Or at least it works with me, i don'k know, how would this atmosphere affected you.
It's already 9:30 pm here and the sun is shining on the sky and doesn't want to set behind the horizont. It's surprisingly warm and finally, it's not raining. Weird this danish weather. I feel fine, very relaxed, music in my ears and I've got the sea in front of me. What else can I wish for? It's beautiful and it makes me happy. I'm smiling. It was a really good decision to come here even if i didn't have any idea how it will be like. This place will be my second home. I wanna dance, sing.. To shout, how amazing i feel like right now. I'm enjoying present, not thinking about my past or not concentrating for my future. Living for this moment, enjoying sun and the birds singing around. That's all, i want to do now :)..

Copenhagen

Heey everybody!

WELCOME TO DENMARK! Thats what i said to myself when i landed at the Cpenhagen airport 11th of june at around 6 pm.  We came earlier and had a good flight with wifi on a board. Seeing the Copenhagen from the window of a plane made me smile. I felt very excited but also kinda afraid, how it will be like.

When i went for my baggage and was walking around the airport, i thought it is not that many people around cause it was really quiet. But there was just soo many people and i really didnt understand how can it be that quiet. I mean, usually because of soo many people at the airports, its very noisy and everybody is shouting and stuff like that. But in Copenhagen's airport i felt like i came to the totally different place where everybody knows how to behave. That was the point when i said to myslef: You came to the different country and this is just the beginning of your new life.

Afterwards trying to catch the right train from the airport and getting  into the place, where i havent been before was a bit stressful but i made it and i was happy about it, the Copenhagen's transport is very easy to understand what's good cause otherwise, i wouldn't get there without any trouble. And i also realized later that i bought the wrong train ticket, so my first travelling by train in the Denmark's capital was a little bit illegal but never mind :D.

Got into the right place and met that 3 crazy girls, who i was supposted to stay  with for the next two weeks. Sure, i didnt know how crazy it will be like lol. Sorry girls, love you haha :D. They told me some very important information about living here what to do and also not to do here, how it works and many other things.

First night here was also very interesting because of going out with them into the city centre.

Firstly, i was very surprised that it was like 10:30 and it was still sunny and not dark at all. Also the sunrise is quite early.

Secondly, it was soo many people on the streets.  It was fascinating me that it doesn't matter here, if you are a student, adult or older couple. Everybody is walking down the streets and they are just smiling at you. Its amazing how they can make you feel so welcome. It looks like everybody is enjoying their lives here and dont care about not important things.

Another fact is that everybody cycle here. I knew about that before i came but it's even better when you are already here and you can see so many bicycles everywhere, young and old cycling while going to work, school, home or just somewhere to town. It's wonderful experience.

I heard about this, as well, and it's that everybody speaks English here whats great. Young, old, if you tell them you cant speak Danish, they will automatically start to talk to you in English. Also if you need a help or something, don't hesitate to ask them, they are really nice. Like yesterday when i met a couple and i needed to find an address. They just looked at the map in their phone and helped me to find it.

Second day here was very chilling. It was very warm and sunny so i decided to go for a walk beacuse we have like 10 minutes away the beach and a small harbour. They told me to go just straight and i will find it. Thanks God, i have a really good sense for orientation, so i found it. I passed many nice houses and i was thinking about how it will look like. When i saw the sea from the distance i closed my eyes, smiled and breathed the fresh air. In that moment i realized, i felt in love with this country and im just gonna love it here.

I walked around the seaside and i was surprised that the kids were swimming in the sea, many people were just relaxing, sitting on the grass and everybody were enjoying the sun shining. It was just soo amazing, i felt like i came to totally different place of this world. Everything made a perfect sense and it felt so right to be there. It was great to just sit and look into the distance to see the bridge, boats and also the kids playing with the sand. I wish that moment could last forever. It's easy to talk about it beacuse i lived that moment and you just have to be here to know what im talking about. I feel free and independent here :).

I found the room, where i will stay, went for a walk around the town and the only thing what i can say about this place is – perfect!

Im really happy that i came here and even it's just beginning, i know i won't regret my decision about coming here. I will enjoy it as much as i can and i will try to get to know the places around and i'm sure, i will meet many new people. That's why i love my life and trying to enjoy every single day.

See you soon :).

At least something :D

Heeeey everyone!

Yeah, im still alive - surprised? . Well, the bad news – havent posted anything last few months but the good one is, i passed my final exams, which i was studying really hard for what means i finished my secondary/high school (whatever you call it). Im really happy about that so you can congratulate me :D. Another big annoucement is, that im going to Denmark 11th of june and im very excited about that. I was concentrating for my last and very important year at school so i wasnt travelling that much (apart from Milan) and i really missed it. I guess, all of you know, how much i love travelling all around the world, so i cant wait to leave Slovakia soon. On the other hand, it was good that i stayed just in Slovakia because i could fully enjoy my friends, family, all of the parties and everything conected to it. It was a great last year at school and i did enjoy every second of it even if there were really hard times.. I moved forward, learnt some new things and met many new amazing people. I would like to thank every single person, who helped me and made me smile, even if i didnt feel like smiling. Thank you soo much all ;).

Guys, i was just reading some of my previous posts and it was really funny and kinda interesting what i wrote here. Some of them didnt look like i wrote them but apparently i did haha. But one thing which hasnt changed is my positive attitude to life. To think positive, to smile, to enjoy every single day. Thats what im trying to remind people around me. Not to forget that mentioned things above.

I love life because of its variety. Its fascinating me that everybodys life is different but if you put some of the peoples lives together, it makes a perfect sense and it is just soo cool together.

I love meeting new people because every single person brings something new to our lives. Some will just pass our life and leave there a little memory and some will have a big influence on it and bring us something great to our lives. They can learn us something or just show us the way, we should go.

I love travelling because i can see soo many wonderful places all around the world and we can get to know the new cultures, new types of living and we are making new memories by it. We can see thousands of pictures of some places but it will never shows us, how amazing the place is in it. Its million times better to see it once and to be there than just talk about it..

I love to smile because im making people around me happy what makes me happy. Its easier with the smile on my face and i feel really good, if someone is smiling because of me.

Life never comes with the instructions, thats true. Our life will be exactly how we make it. So just remember to do what you love and what makes you happy. It doesnt matter what everybody thinks, the most important is, what you think :). Soo have a great summer, keep dreaming and enjoy life :)

P.S. I know its nothing at all but at least something :).

Peace xxx

Milan, Italy

Welcome everyone in a year 2015.

Dont worry, I know its already February haha. I just havent posted anything since New Years so thats why im saying it. Not everything is going the way it should and my writing is not too. I spent New Years Eve in Milan and since i was there im telling myslef, im going to write about it.. Im not going to excuse this time about not having a time or something like that  cause i would lie, its just i couldnt put myslef into writing really. But today, 7th of february,  i finally pushed myslef into  it also because its already February :D! Just about the time tho.

Sooo about the Milan and how was it? Well, lets start from the begining.

They canceled our train to Vienna. That was actually not the best beginning. We were flying from Vienna early in the morning but we had to get there from Bratislava somehow. And because they canceled the train, which we were supposted to go with, we took a bus from the Bratislava airport going straight to the Vienna one. I will rather not mention sleeping in Bratislava airport for a few hours with no people around. Bus came. Great! It took one hour to the Vienna airport where i got a little shock looking at the looong que. I was really thinking we wont make it cause we didnt have much time. Fortunatelly, it went quite fast and when we were almost in the front they started to shout at the people travelling to Milan and Paris (because they were leaving in a short time). They sent us to the Priority place to check in where the guy behind it told us we will have to wait.. I was like, lady over there just sent us here so decide people! I was really afraid we wont catch it. But other guy checked us in, what lasted quite long and when i ask him if we catch it, he just said: „you should go faster.“ We were running around the huge airport hall, trying to find the way to our gate and when we finally arrived.. The gate was closeing... Noo, just kidding, everybody was still sitting there calmly and we were catching a breath haha. The flight was really good, i could say my best one so far. We were flying with Air Berlin and it was just an experience. We were flying just an hour, we got a nice muffin and we could choose, what we wanted to drink for free what i really appreciated cause i was starving. And also we were flying through the sunrise, so was really nice to see the different coloures of the sky.

We landed, got the nice italian croissants and took a taxi. Yeah there the story of Milan begins tho. The hotel wasnt supposted to be as far from the airport but apparently it was. We took a taxi with a taxi driver who didnt speak english, so i just showed him  the paper with the adress of our hotel. He looked at me, told me its not in Milan and put the adress into the GPS. Okay, we were leaving the airport place and we started to look around. Nothing special tho, so instead of looking out the window, i started to look at his GPS and then i realized the prize on the taxameter is kinda higer. I was like, okay,  wont be more than 30€... Guys, I have never paid 65€ for a taxi! I could not even look at the rising prize on it, i was just laughing at our amazing trip starting. Soo lecture number 1 – NEVER EVER take a taxi from the airport if you are going a bit farther otherwise, you have to be very rich to afford it (what we are not :D). Ohh and btw, did i mention, he missed the turn and he had to go around the place? Could safe at least 5€ lol.

Okay, never mind, so we got into the hotel, hoping we will have a room ready cause the check-in started 2 pm and it was like 9:30 in the morning. Luckily for us, it was ready so, we just went to our room, to have some rest. The hotel was very nice, the rooms were amazing, couldnt wait to jump into that big bed.  Took a nice, long shower and went to sleep for a while.

Later, after lunch time, we decided to go to town, to see something  in a very first day, not just being lazy in our hotel. I already had some plans, where to go, whats the best to see, soo we got to the city centre by bus and the underground and took off at Duomo station. When we came up, to the sun, the massive building was standing in front of us and the only thing, what i could say in that moment was „wow.“

Duomo Cathedral is the most amazing one, i have ever seen. It looks huge but soo impressive both inside and outside. This place is the biggest attraction for the tourists, so it was quite a lot of people there all over the place. There is an opportunity to go to the roof top of the cathedral too, so me, personaly, i really enjoyed the view and an imposant monuments all around the roof top. It just did look amazing and it was sunset, so we have some nice pictures.

There were still many christmas markets around the cathedral, so we just walked around, bought some nice baguettes, saw the tallest christmas tree, i have ever seen. It was really tall! Then walking across the street, realizing its famous Galleria Emanuelle II, which was crowded by people, with many christmas decorations, also the christmas tree with Swarowski staff on it. There were many nice restaurants and an expensive shops like Louis Vuitton, Prada, Gucci, Armani, Versace... Didnt have a couragge to walk in but i have some photos from outside(there were men standing inside and opening door, how posh!). I felt like in a movie, not in Milan haha.. Anyway, if im talking about the fashion.. People from Milan are well-known for a good sesnse of style, arent they? But when i was looking at all of them, the only thing what really surprised me was, that everybody is wearing sporty trainers.. Nothing special about the clothers tho, just that trainers. The young ones, older ones, kids, everybody! Thats kinda weird but comfy tho.

Okay, so lets move forward.. I think we had seen quite a lot through the first day there.

The second one was a 31 of december, the last day of the year 2014. That was a very interesting day. After really nice breakfast in the hotel, we were heading back to the center to see some more places. We walked soo many kilometres that day and went to places, which we didnt even know how we got there. We didnt use the map, not even once what really surpised me. We walked around the castle, the big park behind it.. Then went to ice skating, what was fun, seen one of the shopping streets, which was on my list, saw the incredible modern part of Milan, where the UniCredit Bank has a building and went for a nice pizza. Try the italian pizza – tick!

Later nice dinner in a posh restaurant before the celebrating New Years Eve. Was quite funny cause i took a bottle of shampagne to my bag, to drink it later but before entering into the square, they were checking the bags.. With a question if i have any glass in my bag, i just shaked my hand and walked away before they would change their mind and tried to open my bag haha. Anyway, the restaurant and the food was amazing, had a nice risotto, the portion wasnt very big but hey :P. And i had the most perfect/amazing/awesome pannacota EVER! Was soo delicious, just my bofriend was laughing at my enjoyable face but i could not get enough of it. Yummyy.. I would have one now mmm..

Okay, lets get through this. And then, we went to the big square in front of the Duomo Cathedral, where the main show was supposted to be and some live bands/singers.. Some kind of DJ started it and he was quite good. But then, it just started to be terrible. The African band came, started to sing some of their own songs and i was just looking at them and asking myslef, if im really in Italy. I expected some kind of italian songs, bands, artists.. And they were on the stage till like 11 pm! Another band came, wasnt that bad neither that good and i dont know from where but soo many gypsies italians was all around, jumping around, messing around with a rackets and walking to the front and back.. I was really afraid of my life lol, so after loosing my mood to celebrate the new years we went to the back, where nobody was jumping at me and i tried to enjoy the rest of the 2014. The fireworks? We couldnt see nothing at all because of the buildings, could rather stay at home to see the proper ones. I was like, okay, there is nothing else to see, lets go back to the hotel.. Thats where the funny memories begin to be even funnier. So we tried to walk through that crowded street, what was really impossible in that time.. Everybody went just one way, so we were following them.. Everybody went by underground.. Was very interesting tho.. Sat into the wrong underground, took off, went back one stop and waiting for the right one? That can happen just to us.. But the fact, that there were no buses after midnight, we knew about it. We wanted to take a taxi then, but there was no taxis around.. We said never mind, we will see at least one through the way back.. That was what i wished to do but the reality was much worse.. Guys, we were walking more than hour an half back to the hotel, it was like minus 3 degrees, i needed to pee and i was just soo annoyed because there was no taxi around, not even one passed us! So when we finally got back to our lovely warm room, i opened the champagne because i needed some bubbles, ate some left pizza from earlier and went to sleep after a really really long day. So thats about our New Years Eve. Not the best begining of the 2015 but how my dad said, it ment something like travelling the long journeys this year :D. Hopefully wont be as tiring as my first walk in 2015 was.

The next day we were chilling all day just doing nothing at all. Well actually we went to the McDonalds for a dinner and also went to the shop to buy some nice juice. That was also funny cause i said to the guy in the shop good morning at 4 pm, it was very funny, i really dont know why i said it.. This also can happen just to me lol..

And here i come to the last day of our Milan holiday.

We spent our last day shopping but if you want to ask me, what did i buy, i will disappoint you. When my friends asked me that question, i just simply replied – i bought a fridge magnet :D. I know, everybody is laughing at that but didnt find nothing special what worth the money tho. If i dont count food, that was quite expensive but i tried italian pizza and spaghetti, means im satisfied. Soo we were wondering, how will we get into the airport cause we really didnt want to give another 65€ for a taxi. And guess what?! There were a several buses going to the airports.. And do u know, how much did we pay for it? 5€ each! I tought, its a joke, if we knew before.. But okay, we had another lecture – find out, if there are any buses going straight to the city centre :D. We will know next time..

Ookay, so thats about our interesting Milans holiday, so here are some advises:

ü  dont go there for a New Years Eve, doesnt worth it

ü  see the Duomo Cathedral

ü  dont take a taxi for longer distance than 5 mins ride

ü  check the buses time from and to the airport

ü  i can recommend the Best Western Hotel Goldenmile ****

ü  try the pizza (and panacotta in Galeria restaurant)

ü  many homeless people, carefull with them and gipsies all around

ü  4 days there are enough i think, not that much to see

So personally  I think, once was enough of Milan. Was good to see the new place but next time we will rather go somewhere else :)...

Decisions

HEEEY! Hopefully everybody is fine and positive :). Its been a while, i wrote something here. I know i said, i will post here more often but you know, sometimes its just happenin too much in a short time and then you dont know what to do first. And that was exactly my case in a last few weeks. Doing million things in once, being busy (as usual), meeting new people, partying, not sleeping that much, working, solving everyday problems, then not just everyday ones, being crazy, laughing, studying.. Well quite a lot for one person haha. But still better than just sitting at home, isnt it?

I would like to write here today sometihing whats sometimes really hard for as in many ways and thats deciding. Me - personally, im terrible with that. I never can decide (my boyfriend would tell you :D).. I really hate it about myself and sometimes i would like to just slap myself with words – Oh God, come on Erika, decide, you  dont have all day long for it :D.

 Doesnt matter, if it is just about the buying clothes which starts with a question  if you really need it or not, then you are thinking  but its a good prize, so would be great to have it (even if you wont even wear or use it lol). Then deciding to go somewhere or not, stay at home and be comfy or go out to that terrible cold weather outside with your friends. But then if you will go out with your friends, you will have some fun, if you stay home, you will watch the movie or just to be bored and go to the bed earlier with an idea – i feel like an old lazy person..

Okay, okay.. I know. All of us, we have a days like that. Lets be honest, we just need it from time to time (not always!). But then there is another category..

Do you know that feeling when you have to decide between more things and you just feel lost between your head and heart? Im sure, you do! It just happens and i dont believe there is somewhere out one, who has never felt like that. (Please, i want to meet her/him, if they exist! :D)

 Sometimes we find hard to decide, whats good and what is not really, what will help us and what will, on the other hand,  not help us at all. Maybe it looks on the beginning like a right thing and its very tempting but its also very dangerous and even if you really want to try something different, you may regret it once. Its that kind of decisions, which are the hardest ones. Its not about the clothes, which you will wear tomorrow, its not about the not important things, its a decision about our lives!

About the life and about the questions which are really important to us. On of my very important questions right now which kinda scares me is, where to go uni. Okay, i already know but still.. Go to the totally different world with the different everything + studying in english + its not just for a month but for a few years. Will I make it? Will it be all right? Lets hope, it will, thats the only thing what i can do at the moment.. Some more questions which are scarying me? Yeah, there would be a few more. Everybody has some.. Loosing the close people.. Loosing freedom... Not being ourselfs.. We are kinda responsible for all of them, well not just kinda.. We really are. If we behave differently than we should, we can loose some close people. Well, what was i saying? We shouldnt, not very close people even if we change a little bit (i dont mean the huge changes), if they love us once, they shouldnt mind.. Even if its sometimes very hard to find the way back to each other, we should at least try it cause it worth it i guess. We should also think before we do something cause we can hurt somebody and we dont wont any more broken hearts, do we? I think, its quite a lot of them all around the world.. We should just be careful with the decisions we are making because it can hugely affect our life in many ways.

We are responsible for all of our decisions and for all the things what we do, soo my advice? Dont have any.. Well, just think what you do, to think about it later and be happy with (at least almost) all of your decisions you have made :).

Have a break!

Sometimes we feel like we have quite a lot of it, don't we? From time to time I do, for sure. Anyway, what i want to say is, that we shoud take a break! Take a day off from school/work, just chill (or in my case, finish something important to school lol) cause we deserve a rest. We're working soo hard and we are not robots to work/study without a day off. Soo do you know what should you do know? Make a cup of tea (or whatever else, what you like), make yourself comfortable and do nothing at all! Just watch the movie or listen to the music, do something, what you like. I know, some of you will maybe protest and they will be like: "aaahh, i don't have a time bla bla bla..." EXCUSES! You can if you want! You just really have to want it! Even if its hard, you should find the way, how to feel good and how to have a little bit time for yourself :). Good luck!

Vysvetlenie/Explanation

Ahoojte! Takže v momentálnom štádiu sa cítim tak, že príbeh ktorý som sem začala písať asi pred pol rokom, nedokončím.. Zabralo by mi to veeľmi veľa energie a času, čo momentálne nemám, aj keď energia by sa našla.. Takže nateraz končím s príbehmi, aj tak ich nečítalo až tak veľa ľudí, ako keď som pridala len taký článok pomimo :D.. Takže som sa práve rozhodla, že tu budem pridávať hocičo. A to doslova! Moje myšlienky, postrehy, názory.. Jednoducho čo ma napadne a čo ma ovplyvní.. Ďalšou zásadnou zmenou bude, že články , teda aspoň väčšina, budú v angličtine (prepáč dedko, po anglicky toho asi veľa nenačítaš, ale musím sa už trochu posunúť ďalej, ale babka sa môže teraz vzdelávať a opakovať si angličtinu, ona ti to preloží :P). Takže sa budete vzdelávať aj vy so mnou ;). A taktiež si myslím, že tou angličtinou mi to tu bude čítať viac ľudí a taktiež sa to opäť lepšie rozbehne tak, ako to bolo pred tým. Tak sa teším na naše nové zážitky pri písaní/čítaní tohto môjho blogu.. See you soon :).

Something

Po dlhom čase, aspoň niečo, hoci po anglicky :D

Afteeer sooo long time! Something in English this time, what am I thinking about right now? :)

Isnt it crazy, if u have some friends, wo can make u laugh even if u are talking about nothing at all with them? Just typing can make u laugh and i think its one of the best feelings in the world! To have friends, who are always making u laugh, they are trying to cheer u up, if u feel sad. I love laughing out sooo loud, to have teras in my eyes, just because i cant stop laughin. I love that feeling - to be loved by people, who really cares about u and they just love the way you are :). And even if they are far away from you, u know, they will always be there for you and they will never EVER forget you.

Pravda o Cypre

Ahojte ;). Viem, ze som uz dlho nic nepridala, no ako uz asi viete som spat na Cypre a dotaz som jednoducho nemala cas a taktiez sa to uz asi tyzden snazim postnut :P.. A aj ked taky kratsi clanok, chcela som napisat o Cypre mojimi ocami, tak snad sa bude pacit.. Btw, sorry, ze je to bez diakritiky, no pisat na anglickom pocitaci + vsetko mi to preklada do grectiny... :D Enjoy

Letna prax zo skoly, 5 mesiacov horucavy, Cyprus, party, alkohol, naladovy sef a volne dni vtedy, ked nechceme + spolubyvajuce su bordelarky - madarky. Ano, to je moj zivot tu na Cypre v Ayia Nape. No ani zdaleka to nie je vsetko..
Hovori sa, ze vsetko ma svoje pozitiva a negative a asi je to aj pravda. Ja sa vacsinou zameriavam hlavne  na tie pozitiva, no samozrejme, niekedy je to naozaj tazke..
Na Cypre milujem tu volnost a celkovy zivot. Robis si co chces, kedy chces, s kym chces a ako chces.. Zijes si jednoducho svoj zivot.
Ten pocit, ked rano (teda na obed) vstanes, mas volny den, den pred tym si zuroval/a, vsetci sme rozbiti, nechce sa nam, no vstavame, pozrieme do chladnicky, ktora zvycajne zyva prazdnotou, tak ju radsej hned znechutene zavrieme, skrka nam v bruchu, rychlo sa dame dokopy, oblecieme sa a ideme sa najest do tej najuzasnejsej pekarni na svete (vola sa Zorbas), dame si zapecenu bagetu a len tak si sedime vonku na lavicke a uzivame si ten pocit, ked nieco poriadne papame.
Nasledne sa donutime ist na plaz, kde sa opekame a otacame ako kurca na grille, aby sme boli rovnomerne opalene. Sem-tam si ideme zaplavat do mora, ci len tak sa osviezit slanou vodou, ktora je mimochodom taka slana, ze by sme z nej mohli pozbierat sol a navarit polievku bez pridania soli, ktoru stale kupujeme. Este by sme aj usetrili.  No ale ved to je jedno. Aj dve. Uz odbocujem. No takze bezstarostny zivot, len tak si lezat na plazi a slnit sa, podo mnou horuci no jemny piesok, vyhlad na krasne modre more. Obzeram sa dalej a nasledne konstatujem, ze sezona peknych a vypracovanych tiel uz v Ayia Nape zacala. Nevadi, ze som zadana, drzim sa pravidla – nesahat pouze koukat :D.. A nekoukat = impossible, cize nemozne.
Party v Ayia Nape? Totalne sialene! Momentalne je to tu uz konecne busy, ulice su plne ludi, takze niekedy sa musime doslova predierat, aby sme sa dostali z bodu A do bodu B. Veeelmi vela mladych ludi, ktori si sem chodia hlavne uzivat a zabavat sa, kluby v noci doslova ozivaju, hlasna hudba z kazdej strany, vybrat si mozes z cohokolvek, ci uz mas rada RnB, oldies alebo aj sucasne hity. Kedze sme staff, tak mame volne vstupy do vsetkych klubov, niekde mame este aj drinky zdarma, alebo aj niektori kamarti po kluboch, ktori nas uz poznaju, nam beru drinky “na svoje triko”.
Praca v Ayia Nape? Popravde, vobec nie je tazke si ju tu najst.. Ak sa len prejdete po hlavnej ulici, na kazdom druhom obchode, restike ci bare maju napisane, ze hladaju staff, cize zamestnancov. Dokonca vela klubov hlada ludi, ktori budu rozdavat letaky a budu lakat ludi do svojho baru a verte mi, tychto tu je asi naaajviac a niekedy nam uz lezu na nervy, kedze kazdych 5 metrov vas zastavuju a nechcu vas pustit dalej..
A co sa tyka mojej praci v hoteli, mam ju rada. Vacsinou som takmer vsade, teda vsetky restiky a bary. No pracu za barom mam radsej, lebo sa mozem rozpravat s hostami, co milujem uplne najviac! Zboznujem spoznavanie novych ludi a tu je ta filtracia hosti dost vysoka, kazde mame kazde dva tyzdne novych hosti, niekedy aj castejsie. Vzdy sa snazim rozpravat s vacsinou, hlavne ked mam cas, vtedy to je najlepsie. Je to totiz uzasne pocuvat, o roznych ludoch, z roznych casti sveta, ked mi rozpravaju, co vsetko uz zazili a kde vsade boli.. Ozaj, a viete co je este super? Ked sem pridu hostia z minuleho roku a pamataju si ma, to je skvely pocit. Alebo ked spoznate niekoho z hosti, ktory vas za tie jeho dva tyzdne pobytu u nas velmi ovplyvni alebo sa velmi skamaratite a potom ked odchadza je to niekedy naozaj divny pocit, ze sa s nim/s nou uz mozno nikdy neuvidite, no pritom viete, ze na daneho cloveka nikdy nezabudnete. Mne osobne to dava velmi vela a nedokazem si predstavit svoju pracu bez kontaktu s ludmi.  Som velmi spolocensky clovek, ktory sa stale usmieva a rad sa rozprava(ale to uz o mne asi viete :D).. Takze to je pre mna na praci v hoteli uplne TOP. No taktiez je zaujimave vidiet, ako sa pocas jednej sezony v hoteli vsetko meni, ci preraba, ako sa vymyslaju nove veci v snahe zlepsit to, no nakoniec to vyjde este horsie, nez to bolo pred tym.. Taktiez ako vsetko funguje, ci nefunguje.. Skvela skusenost.
Takze taky suhrn celej Ayia Napy? Jednozancne sa sem opati prist, aspon na par dni, vidiet to tu, celkovy zivot tu. Urcite sa to neda opisat slovami a taktiez fotky nedokazu zachytit tie jedinecne zazitky a situacie, ktore tu clovek prezije. Jednoducho to treba vidiet a zazit. No garantujem vam, ze toto miesto vas nesklame, pretoze su tu nadherne plaze, more so vsetkymi odtienami modrej, uzasne party, dobre restauracie ci bary a sialeni ludia, ktori vam vsak obcas dokazu pomoct viac, nez si dokazete predstavit. A mozno spoznate ludi, ktori vam zmenia zivot a celkovo aj vas postoj k zivotu, tak ako sa to stalo aj mne..
See you :)!

Story of my Life 18

Ahoojte :)! Viem, že som už dlhšie nič nepridala, ale posledné dni boli dosť busy a keďže v utorok opäť odchádzam na Cyprus, tak som mala vybavovačky, ukončiť školský rok a podobne.. Každopádne dúfam, že sa bude páčiť a že si to ešte niekto prečíta ;).

„To máš zato, že si taký magor!“ hovorí mi a v tej chvíli je už pri nás aj Pete a snaží sa ma odsunúť preč.

„Nie Pete, nechaj ma!“ bránim sa a predieram sa späť k nej.

Christy ma prebodáva pohľadom, no mne je to v tej chvíli jedno. Nedovolím, aby robila niečo, čo bude neskôr ľutovať..

„Ideme domov Christy!“ hovorím rozhodne a hľadíme si do očí.
„Nemáš právo mi hovoriť kedy idem domov! Môžem tu zostať do kedy chcem a s kým chcem!“

„Poď!“
„A prečo by som vlastne mala ísť s tebou? Choď si za tou svojou štetkou!“ vyhŕkne a v tej chvíli ma úplne odstaví a ja neviem čo mám povedať.

„Povedz kamarátom dobrú noc“ hovorím rozhodne a bez emócií a ťahám ju preč, hoci sa vzpiera.

„Sebi!“ zastaví ma ešte Pete.

„Ver mi! Neboj sa, nejdem ju znásilniť.. Som opitý, no nie až tak.. Odvediem ju domov, to bude najlepšie..“

„Dobre teda.. Pôjdem s vami..“

„Nie! To zvládnem“ hovorím presvedčivo, no on je neoblomný.

„Notáák, nebuď blbec.“

„Hlavne odtiaľto čím skôr vypadnime..“

„Tak teda poďme“ hovorí a opúšťame preplnený klub.

Christy

Ráno som sa prebudila s veľkou bolesťou hlavy a pomaly som rozlepila oči. Rozhliadla som sa naokolo a po chvíli som sa strhla. Kde to vlastne som? Pozrela som sa na seba, no mala som oblečené svoje šaty zo včerajšku. Ako som sa sem dostala? Včerajšok.. Čo sa dialo? Mám trochu väčšie okno, lepšie povedané, posledné, čo si pamätám je, že sme s Petom šli niekam do klubu.. Ach, mám v hlave toľko otázok.. Ľahnem si späť a hlavu si zaborím do vankúša. Keď vtom zrazu... Sprcha? Naozaj počujem sprchu?! Sakra, takže tu asi nie som sama.. Po  chvíli sa spamätám a snažím sa nájsť svoje topánky a kabelku. Musím zdrhnúť, kým ma tu niekto nenačape.. Už už sa presuniem do kuchyne s tým, že snáď som si zobrala všetko, keď sa otvoria dvere kúpeľne.

„Zdrháš?“ uškŕňa sa na mňa osoba, ktorú by som tu vôbec nečakala a má na sebe len obmotaný uterák.

„Sebi?“ zízam naňho prekvapene a zarazene zároveň.

„A koho si čakala?“ smeje sa na mojom výraze a ja sa cítim trápne.

„Ja, ja... Neviem.. My sme spolu niečo.. No veď vieš.. Mali?“ pýtam sa s obavou v hlase.

„Nie, aj keď som sa musel držať.“

„Chvála Bohu! Teda počkať.. Čože??“

„Noták, robím si z teba srandu“ krúti hlavou a zagúľa očami.

„Magor!“ zamumlem si.

„Ďakujem.. Nebyť mňa moja milá, tak sa pravdepodobne zobúdzaš v nejakej inej posteli, no tvoja by to určite nebola! Mala by si sa mi ešte poďakovať“ hovorí trochu rozhorčene a ja naňho nechápavo pozriem.

„Čo tým myslíš?“

„Nehraj sa, že nevieš o čom rozprávam.. Doslova si sa tam včera predávala ako nejaká..“ hovorí, no potom sa zastaví a nedopovie.

„Nie som si istá, či chcem vedieť, čo sa včera dialo“ hovorím tichšie a pozerám do zeme.

„Tak počkať.. Ty si to nepamätáš?!“ zasmial sa, pričom si odfrkol.

„Bolo to snáď až také vtipné?!“ hovorím zvýšeným hlasom.

„Ako pre koho..“

„Opýtam sa inak.. Čo si pamätáš ako posledné?“

„Že som šla s Petom niekam do klubu..“

„A pred tým?“ Bola som u Peta aaa...“

„Aaa?“

„Nič, to ťa nemusí zaujímať“ hovorím, pričom si uvedomím, že mu predsa nemôžem povedať pravdu. To, ako som bola na dne a následne som sa kvôli nemu opila..

„Takže nič z klubu si nepamätáš?“
„Hmm.. Nie.“

„Páni.. Ale musím ti pogratulovať, všetci chlapi slintali.. Mohla si si vyberať.. Škoda, že si to nepamätáš“ hovorí ironicky, no ja v tom cítim aj trochu nahnevaný tón.

„O čom to do pekla rozprávaš?! A mimochodom, aj keby, prečo to teba tak veľmi zaujíma.. Vlastne, lepšie povedané, ja ťa nezaujímam, tak prečo sa do mňa toľko staráš?!“ hovorím zvýšeným hlasom a on na mňa pozrie pohľadom, ktorý som uňho ešte nevidela..

„Pozri,“ začal normálnym hlasom „včera si tam vyzerala zúfalo.. Okolo seba si mala minimálne 15 chlapov, ktorí ťa z každej strany obchytkávali a ktorých si bozkávala.. Tancovala si, akoby si bola nejaká striptérka a ešte tie šaty, v ktorých si taká sexi... Nedopadlo by to dobre, keby si tam zostala.. Musel som ťa odtiaľ zobrať, skôr, než bolo neskoro“ povedal trochu skleslo a ja som sa mu zapozerala do očí.

„Takže preto som teraz tu? Preto som tu spala? To ty si ma odtiaľ vzal? Prečo? Prečo ti vadilo, keď som okolo seba mala toľkých chlapov, ktorí ma, podľa tvojich slov, obchytkávali? Prečo si ma tam jednoducho nenechal?“

„Nemohol som sa na to už ďalej pozerať Christy..“

„Ale prečo, tak mi už konečne povedz prečo?!“ dožadujem sa zúfalo odpovede.

„Chceš vedieť prečo? Naozaj to chceš vedieť? Fajn!! Pretože mi na tebe záleží, áno.. Pretože som žiarlil, keď tam všetci boli okolo teba. Ako sa ťa tam tí slizkí hadi dotýkali a vedel som, že každému z nich ide len o jedno! Viem, že to dievča, ktoré tam včera s nimi tancovali si nebola ty.. Viem, že ty taká nie si.. Ale bola si taká opitá.. Pochop, nechcel som, aby ti niekto ublížil“ hovorí smutne a mne sa nahrnú slzy  do očí. Bože, čo som to tam včera vystrájala?!

„Povedal si, že ti na mne záleží?“ hovorím prekvapene, keďže mi práve dôjde, čo povedal.

„Áno, počula si dobre..“

„Tak prečo ma potom tak trápiš Sebi?“

„O čom to tu rozprávaš?“ pýta sa nechápavo.

„Vieš, prečo som včera vyzerala tak, ako som vyzerala? Bolo to len a len kvôli tebe. Keď som ťa včera videla s tvojou bývalou a to celé divadielko tam.. Jednoducho som to nedokázala stráviť.. Potom prišiel Pete a ponúkol mi pomoc, povedala som mu, že sa chcem opiť a tak sme sa opili. Pomohlo mi to aspoň na chvíľu vypnúť a povedala som si, že sa kvôli nikomu trápiť nebudem, lebo to aj tak zjavne nemá zmysel..“

„Jaa.. Prepáč mi to.. Nevedel som, že si to tak brala. Ale keď ty si taká tvrdohlavá.. Chcel som ti to vysvetliť, lenže ty sama si zdrhla, šiel som potom za tebou, no Pete ma zastavil, že nech k tebe radšej ani nejdem, že on pôjde.. A aj tak si mi včera na pláži vravela, že ti je to už jedno, pamätáš?“

„Prosím? Áno, povedala som to, pretože som mala pocit, že to práve tebe je úplne všetko ukradnuté.. Sebi ja nie som dievča, s ktorým sa raz vyspíš a potom zdrhneš.. Nechcem byť len letnou láskou na noc, či týždeň..“

„Počkať, počkať.. Ty si naozaj myslíš, že som to bral  tak, že som sa s tebou vyspal a že si len nejaká moja trofej alebo niečo? Vážne?? Chcel som sa s tebou o tom včera na pláži porozprávať, lenže si ma hneď odstavila, že to už neriešiš a že ti to je jedno..“

„A nebola som len nejaká trofej? Keď si sa so mnou o tom chcel tak veľmi porozprávať, prečo som ťa hneď našla s tvojou polonahou ex u teba, ako sa bozkávate? Šla som za tebou, lebo som sa ti chcela ospravedlniť za to, čo som ti na pláži povedala a chcela som ti povedať, že mi to vôbec nie je jedno.. Ale potom som si to akosi rozmyslela..“

„Diana za mnou včera bola, áno.. Keď som počul, že mi niekto zaklopal na dvere, jedinú osobu, ktorú som za nimi chcel vidieť, si bola ty! Lenže nestála si tam ty, ale ona.. Bol som mimo, z toho rozhovoru s tebou a ona to využila vo svoj prospech.. Veľmi sa ti ospravedlňujem, nechcel som, no akosi som sa nedokázal brániť.. No potom som zrazu zbadal tvoju tvár a povedal som nahlas tvoje meno a ona sa nahnevala.. A tak som ju vyhodil a videl som tam stáť teba.. Jasné, že by sa to ťažko vysvetľovalo..“

„Aha“ dostala som zo seba a tento náš rozhovor začínal byť dosť mätúci.

Positive Thinking!

Taký kratší motivačný článok ;)!

Niekedy je život komplikovaný.. Niečo sa náhle pokazí, stratíme milovanú osobu, niekto nás oklame či sklame, máme nedostatok peňazí, nič sa nám nedarí a máme pocit, že sa proti nám postavil celý svet. Dovolím si totiž tvrdiť, že každý z nás niečo z toho aspoň raz v živote zažil, že? Viem, viem, nie vždy je to všetko jednoduché. No hoci si to často ani neuvedomujeme, za veľa vecí si môžeme sami a väčšinou si ten náš život komplikujeme my! Teraz si určite väčšina z vás pomyslí, to určite, ja že si môžem za to všetko zlé? Odpoveďou je bohužiaľ kruté, no pravdivé ÁNO! Našimi myšlienkami si privolávame všetko. Či už všetko dobré, no zároveň aj to zlé. Ja viem, ťažko uveriteľné, tiež som tomu najprv nechápala, no konečne som svoje zmýšľanie zmenila. Viete, je to v podstate celkom jednoduché. Stačí sa zamerať na veci, ktoré máte radi a byť vďačný. Ďakujte za všetko naokolo, za dobré počasie, za zdravie, rodinu, priateľov, peniaze, za kvety, ktoré máte radi, za jedlo, ktoré vám chutí, jednoducho za hocičo, na čo si spomeniete a čo vám robí radosť. Robte veci, ktoré vás robia šťastnými. Máte radi šport? Športujte! Radi chodíte von do prírody? Tak neseďte doma a choďte! Snažte sa nahradiť všetko negatívne pozitívnym a uvidíte, že tým pozitívnym rozmýšľaním si do života pritiahnete ešte viac pozitívneho, veľa šťastných chvíľ a veľa ľudí, ktorý zmýšľajú ako vy :). Good luck!

Story of my Life 17

Enjoooy :)! Btw, nezabudnite na anketu :D

„Notáák Christy, viem, že si tam“ klopal mi neprestajne na dvere Pete, no ja som zo seba nedokázala vydať ani slovo.

„Prosím.. Potrebuješ teraz podporu, videl som vás von“ hovorí a ja mu teda otvorím, no od dverí sa ešte stále veľmi nepohnem.

Pete vkĺzol dnu cez polootvorené dvere a keď ma zbadal sedieť na zemi, učupenú s roztečenou špirálou, sadol si vedľa mňa a tuho ma objal. V tej chvíli som sa cítila veľmi veľmi sklamaná.

„Noták, nestojí ti za to“ hovorí mi, čo ma aj trochu prekvapí, keďže viem, že sú kamaráti.. No v tej chvíli mi je úplne jedno, čo hovorí.. Jeho objatie mi pomáha a ja po chvíli prestávam vzlykať. Von sa už stmieva a mňa začína premáhať únava a taktiež mi je zima. Krátko sa v Petovom objatí pomrvím a on uvoľní ruky, ktorými ma držal, aby som sa mohla postaviť. Unavene si pretriem oči a rukami si zmyjem špirálu, nech nevyzerám ako mátoha..

„Jaa...“

„To je v pohode“ preruší ma hneď Pete, usmeje sa a opäť ma objíme.

„Ak pre teba ešte môžem niečo urobiť...“

„Opi sa so mnou!“ hovorím rýchlo a jeho moja odpoveď pravdepodobne najprv zaskočí, no potom sa len uškrnie.

„Tak ma teda nasleduj“ hovorí mi a otvára dvere.

„Počkaj, veď predsa nemôžem ísť takto, vyzerám hrozne.. Ty kľudne choď, ja sa dám dokopy a prídem.“

„Si si istá?“ pozrie na mňa so zdvihnutým obočím.

„Áno.. Kam mám prísť?“

„Príď ku mne, mám plnú chladničku“ zasmeje sa a ja len súhlasne prikývnem.

„Dobre, hneď som tam“ hovorím a on odchádza.

Pri pohľade do zrkadla sa zháčim nad svojim výzorom a tak sa hneď začnem dávať dokopy. Rýchla osviežujúca sprcha, odmaľovať sa, no zároveň aj namaľovať a vybrať niečo na seba. Hmm, čo si oblečiem? Mám chuť na niečo sexi.. Veľmi sexi. Nepoloží ma predsa nejaký chlap.. Idem sa zabaviť a na všetko zabudnem.. Už aj tá únava ma tuším prešla. Idem si dnes užívať, je mi všetko jedno..

Nakoniec som teda zvolila svoje nové modro - tyrkysové šaty so zlatým opaskom a veľkým výstrihom. V tej chvíli som vedela, že sa za mnou dnes otočí nejeden chlap, no v podstate to bol môj plán. Do zlatej kabelky som si dala len kľúče a svetlo ružový rúž, to mi bude na dnes stačiť.

Po chvíli som už klopala Petovi na dvere a neprešli ani 2 sekundy a už mi otvoril.

„Stál si pri dverách či čo?“ uškrniem sa a vojdem dnu.

„Páni“ zíza na mňa tak okato, že by sa to nedalo nevšimnúť si.

„Pete zavri ústa, tečie ti slina“ zasmejem sa na jeho priblblom výraze tváre a on len potrasie hlavou.

„Prepáč, ale keď si porovnám, ako si vyzerala asi pred pol hodinou a teraz.. Sooo sexy!“

„Ďakujem.. To bol môj plán, vyzerať dnes čo najviac sexi.. Musela som sa dať dokopy. Nebudem sa predsa pozastavovať nad nejakým idiotom, ktorý ma neskutočne naštval a sklamal!“

„Christy si si istá, že..?“ začal opatrne, no ja som ho rýchlo prerušila.

„100 percentne! Tak a teraz by si mi už mohol niečo naliať, lebo začínam byť smädná“ uškrniem sa a on nám teda naleje.

„Na dnešný začínajúci sa večer“ pripíjame si a kopneme do seba niečo riadne ostré. Netuším čo pijem, no bude to dosť silné. No hovorím si, nevadí, čím silnejšie, tým lepšie.

Sebi

„Nedokázal som len tak sedieť doma a čumieť na steny naokolo. Musel som vypadnúť! Fľašu som už stihol dopiť a keďže sa mi zásoby minuli, chcel som ísť niekam. Potreboval som ísť medzi ľudí, potreboval som sa znormalizovať! Potrebujem sa odreagovať! Musím na ňu prestať myslieť.

Postavil som sa, prezliekol som sa a odišiel som do mesta. Len tak sám. Určite v tam niekoho stretnem. Niekoho, kto si so mnou dá do nosa.

Prišiel som do klubu, prezývaný „The Castle“, ktorý je tu najobľúbenejší a taktiež je vždy preplnený. Došiel som dnu, trochu som sa poobzeral, stretol som pár známych a namieril som si to rovno k baru. Objednal som si niekoľko shotov (šotov=poldecákov), ktoré som si vypil ani neviem s kým. Sledoval som ľudí tancujúcich naokolo, baby tancujúce na bare a potom som stretol Charlotte s ktorou som sa dal do reči.

„Ahooj, si v pohode?“ pýta sa ma a ja len prikývnem.

„Videla som, čo sa dnes stalo..“

„Nerieš to Charlotte.. Je to už jedno.“
„Jasné, že nie je. Obaja sa stále obkukávate a nemysli si že neviem, že ste už spolu aj... Dobre, som ticho.. Prečo to tak všetko musíte komplikovať.. Čo u teba vlastne robila Diana?“ zavalila ma otázkami, ktoré som však asi po sekunde zabudol.

„Charlotte, nazdravie“ ukázal som jej pred očami svoj pohárik a ona len zagúľala očami.

„Tak nazdravie“ hovorí a konečne pijem s niekým, koho poznám.

K Charlotte sa pridá aj Lily a Adam a tak mi pomáhajú pri odreagovaní sa, no potom ma pohľad zavedie na druhý koniec baru. Zrazu zbadám Peta a Christy ako sa zabávajú a ona tancuje asi s každým, kto je okolo nej. Chlapi slintajú, pretože má na sebe neskutočne sexi šaty, ktoré viac odhaľujú než zakrývajú a tak všetky pohľady patria jej.. Pomedzi tancovanie si dá tri shoty za sebou a baví sa ďalej.
„Mal by si ísť za ňou.“

„Nie..“

„Veď ju tam o chvíľu vyzlečú“ poznamená niekto vedľa mňa po chvíli a naozaj to tak vyzerá..

„Nech sa baví..“

„Sebi..“

„Dajte mi všetci pokoj!“ hovorím a vstávam od baru.. Chystám sa k inému baru na opačnom konci klubu, no po chvíli tam príde Pete a za ním Christy.

Nevšimnú si ma a veselo sa bavia. Je neskutočne opitá a jazyk sa jej začína pliesť. Zrazu k nej však zozadu príde nejaký chlap a pobozká ju na krk.

S vypúlenými očami ich sledujem a ona sa zrazu otočí a pobozká ho. Potom jej podá drink Pete a keď mu schmatne svoj drink z ruky, taktiež ho pobozká.

Čo to robí?? Nechápem. Veľká skupinka chlapov okolo nej a ona si tam tancuje, akoby bola nejaká striptérka alebo čo.. Zbláznila sa?

Zrazu som potiahol za tričko odchádzajúceho Peta a ten sa automaticky otočil.

„Čo to preboha robí?“ pýtam sa ho, pričom ukazujem na Christy.

„Baví sa“ odpovedá myknutím plecom akoby nič.

„Veď doslova z nej kričí: vezmite si ma, dnes som vaša!“ rozčuľujem sa.

„Pozri, chce sa odreagovať.. Dnes si ju nahneval a sklamal, tak sa nečuduj..“

„Od kedy sa jej takto zastávaš?“

„A čo sa ty do toho staráš, veď ti je ukradnutá!“

„Prosím ťa, čo ty o tom vieš!“

„To by som mohol povedať aj ja o tebe!“

„Preboha!“ hovorím pri pohľade na Christy. Chlapi okolo nej šalejú a on ich provokuje každým jedným pohybom.

„Nechaj ju!“

„Ouuu, ale tak toto už nie!“ hovorím nahnevane, keď jeden chlap ju chytá jednou rukou za prsia a druhou za zadok.

Pribehnem rýchlo do stredu toho ich „kruhu“ a tomu chlapovi päsťou vrazím do tváre. Všetci na mňa neveriacky hľadia a potom mi zboku niekto vylepí facku.

„Au!“ pošúcham si líce a pred sebou zbadám nahnevanú Christy. Áno, to ona mi práve vrazila.